PROVING GROUNDS.
This week will be a proving grounds on to whether all the practice for being consistent, persuasive and hardworking will work; simply because it's the week before the mid-semester break and I have done nothing at all. I do wonder what lies ahead, but not too much as it distracts from my slacker cum directionless lifestyle. This weekend has been spent fixing up computer systems that I don't own; and that's really funny because I don't know how I get myself into situations where I just spend good parts of my weekend staring at xp update downloads. And contrary to popular belief; I don't really enjoying formatting systems. All I ever used to feel for it was the achievement of being able to shape a perfect system in the least amont of time; call it a challenge perhaps, but after the big (50+ X in a month) formatting endurance last year, I think I proved to myself that I indeed was jobless and a tad bit insane. Every day since then has been one way or another trying to get a life. And I've been in one way or another chasing the wrong direction. I've gotten some areas in line, but have misconceptionalised the others. So what's new? The news this week.
The Pope Has Passed On.
God bless him. Hope he finds peace and the perfect world at heaven's gates.
THE C WORD.
Cyberjaya is a crazy place. It's high temperatures and ghost town-ness prove to be rather unappealing, but I have to manage somehow. Hopefully with some female help.
FINDING EMO.
The galant search for my natural emotional self is a step closer. Go watch the new movie "Be Cool". I saw some underlying sense in it. If you don't, at least it's an extremely entertaining movie.
6 DISC CHANGER.
My irrelevant search for the perfect 6-disc combination for the changer has brought me to the conclusion that it cannot be as responsive to my mood shifts as I like it to be. Radio helps, but the monkey local DJs suck. And boy are they good at it.
THE CALM AFTER THE STORM.
Naturally it'd be calmer well after the storm than before it. Anticipation makes it more exciting. But we all know that deep in our hearts we can't wait for the agression of the storm but yet want to exert a pleasing affection for the calm, masking the true face of human nature. Indulgence is transparency. Is that wrong? Does the need for public acceptance really string that high a note in our emotional prowess that we fail to do what we want to? Think about it. It is the storm before the calm that you're looking for.
"Everyone is more preoccupied about what they will look like that they somehow conform to a common mould. Transparency scares them because individualism is not widely accepted but it is individualism everyone craves for; and therefore, individualism sells."
